Friday, July 6, 2012
Apprehensive
I have been doing ok these past few weeks. Thanks to outside drama and 'keepin busy' occupying my time and mind. Monday I go in to see my MD to review my chart and discuss what really happen medically with the premature water break and develop a plan for the next pregnancy(ies). Since I have been doing pretty okay these last few weeks going in for this discussion makes me nervous about taking a plunge backward on this journey. It's a conversation I need and feel like is pivotal for movement through this greiving process. Knowing will help me settle with what occurred and know what I have to face moving forward in adding to my family. As I seek out supports to help through this journey I discover the care I had was more than what other women have had in dealing with similiar situations but it does not stop my need for clarity. I appreciate the nurses in my support group giving my questions/wondering some directon on how to quiet those voices along this process. This is first step to getting some direction back in my life then I may be able to think about career and other life goals.
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I know that this has not been easy for either of you and very trying on the relationship. But don't think of this meeting as taking a step backwards. Think of it as a stepping stone for moving into the future. Clarity always makes taking the next step easier. Just when you take that step you are taking it hand and hand with your husband.
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Know that we will stand in agreement with you both on whichever direction you choose. That's what we are here for, to be leaned on when needed.