2 Weeks of New Life

Wow! Today marks two weeks of life for our new family of me, hubby and our bouncing baby boy. These two weeks have been the most emotional, amazing, eye-opening and authentic experiences of my relationship with my mom, my marriage and motherhood. I have always knew my mom was this incomparable woman but having her with me to help me the first pivotal moments of my son's life made me thankful to God for choosing her for me. In addition, finally seeing the sheer joy and overflow of love that my husband exudes when he looks, touches and holds our son makes me feels accomplished as his wife. Moreover, as sleep eludes me I realized as a new mother that the African proverb 'it takes a village' is literally true. You need more than yourself when there is new life introduced. I began to reflect and recognize that all the women in my life who are single mothers have led me astray - they made it look easy and with some flare too. I knew they were always tired and running but I had no idea that the running is never ending. Not just physically running but mentally always thinking, worrying, planning and parenting. I never imagined this level of exhaustion but not wanting to sleep because you do not want to miss a moment of their life. All these emotions, hormones, no sleep, trying to always do the best and wanting to watch each new thing this new life brings is an exorbitant task. No one quite warned me sufficiently for this task. Yet, I am learning there is not anything one can put into language that truly describes what becoming and being a new mother is and will be. We have made it this far - two weeks of life - with a few hiccups along the way but most importantly this life confirms HIS life. God's promises have manifest in our lives through the birth of our son. Having endured this journey solidifies that God has designed my life not myself. This revelation brings to life the saying 'you are not your own' with Christ and more so now as a parent I am no longer LaTanya I am now Kaden's mom. I am excited to embark on this new life as Kaden's mom, one in which I have prayed for, this life, his life and our lives and now that more enriched.